summer 2009.

here's how the summer is laying out.

working at the georgia trail. a golf course. really enjoy it, but its not what i want... it's getting harder as time goes on. but i am going to be a screamer. that should help.

boston trip is out. but we are planning a sweet camping trip.

working a ton. need the money.

i lost hope, so i will be at home all year. should be interesting.

I had two completely different things happen to me this weekend. Eric told me he has never seen someone grow as much in one year as i have. My aunt spent 10 minutes on sunday telling me how i am a screw up. how does that add up?

what a year. lets recap.
1. i "fell in love" with a girl, thought she might be the girl i was going to marry.
2. had the worst experience of my life.
3. the girl dumped me, still don't know why.
4. we haven't spoken in 5 months. so i lost a good friend too.
5. got hit by a car.
6. got mugged at knife point.
7. lost the opportunity to work at camp.
8. got rejected from uga
9. lost hope
10. severely threatened multiple relationships because i have been a wreck all year, short-tempered, and moody as all get out.

at the same time...

1. by the grace of God i have begun to overcome something incredible
2. have joined a d-group that completely altered my life.
3. met some incredible people that will make me staying at state not only tolerable, but enjoyable.
4. started going to the living room. incredible.
5. continued to grow closer to God.

to sum it up. God took me through the mud this year. He left me battered, bruised, and bloody. He brought me to my knees in tears and begging for Him to rescue me. He brought me to my feet with loving arms, and embraced me the way only a Father could. He now gives me strength everyday to overcome any obstacle.

I now stand before you a man. A man who knows what darkness is, and knows that there is only one truth, one light, and one way.

"My dead heart now is beating, my deepest stains now clean. Your breath fills up my lungs. now i'm free, now i'm free."